Oh hey 👋🏼 it’s been a hot minute since I’ve posted, but I’m still here. Just been focusing on some physical, emotional and spiritual self care. Sometimes life needs to kinda smack ya in the face a little bit for you to finally take a deep breath and a step back… to re-analyze and recharge.
Originally I started this blog to share my love for all things fashion and beauty— a little something for just ME, outside of being a (super tired) stay at home mama. I could spend HOURS browsing outfits on Pinterest and researching the latest + greatest beauty products. That’s always been me! I still greatly enjoy those things, but I’ll tell you what doesn’t come naturally to me… are you ready for some brutal honesty? Being a really GOOD wife mother. The kind that’s attentive, patient, slow to anger, and long suffering. That actively showers her husband and children in prayer and doesn’t hesitate to serve. The kind that bears the fruit of the Spirit. That doesn’t grumble about making her husband’s lunch or picking up his dirty socks. And man, what a realization to dawn on me- that I was actively spending more time on material THINGS than I was investing in my soul. Pretty crushing, especially seeing the ones I love most suffer because of it. So I had to take a step back from this virtual space and from these little squares that had begun to consume me.
Now, I’ll be honest, there have been a lot of factors at play in my decision to take a break: PPD, selling the house we’d renovated from the ground up, moving into a tiny 2 bedroom apartment then buying another house and moving 7 months later, our lack of local family support… I could go on, but those are just a few off the top of my head.
I’ll end this long winded post by summarizing what God has shown me this last year: that I need to be content and grateful for where I’m at, and that my role as a wife and mother is IMPORTANT. Just as important as my passion for my blog… actually, even more so. He’s shown me that the really big changes in the world start with the very small, often deemed dull things within the walls of our homes. And while my dream has never been to be a stay at home mom, I can honestly say that He has changed my heart. No matter how much success I find in other things, there is no greater privilege or responsibility than the honor of raising my boys. Of bringing joy and order within our home. Of serving my husband through the little things, like surprising him with a packed lunch and picking up his socks without complaining. **DISCLAIMER: I’m not saying be a doormat. My husband has never expected me to pack his lunches, pick up after him, or have food ready when he gets home. These are just some ways I feel led to serve him.**
So, yes, I am still going to continue blogging about fashion and beauty because those are things I’m genuinely passionate about. They bring meaning to my life outside of being a wife and mom, because yes, I DO have an identity outside of that! It’s just that my perspective has shifted, and I won’t be sacrificing my MOST important work for merely important work. The peace this realization has given me has been nothing short of freeing. I know I’m where I’m meant to be! I thank God for that and for readers like you who have supported and encouraged me along the way. I hope that my posts will be nothing less for you as well. Here’s to being genuinely uplifting AND fashionable!
All my love,